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Post by Fiory on Jan 28, 2005 16:54:41 GMT -5
[glow=purple,9,000]A wind blew through the small pack, standing there and watching Bila's form cursing Fiory's new family. Tanned gold auditories that had been flicked foreward, slowly reversed again. Anger and hurt swelled in her heart. Her tail slowly lowered, but her head stayed high. In a short space of time, the young female had gone from angry, to hurt, to infuriated to saddened and worried then back to a hurt anger. Now, she could see the lack of love that Bila held in her one glaring eye. For both her sister and for her sister's family.
"Sudak...Gryffin. Please." Fiory began, her voice cracking. "Take Orion, Denisha and Shatila to the dens, and make sure they are safe..." her voice was full of sadness, as for the third time, Orion was set down upon the chilling white snow. This time, her golden hues didn't leave Bila's staring orb. They shone with an anger that could not have been matched by Fenris's rays even if one tried. Fiory wanted her cubs away, she wanted them in a safe place and away from the fight that was brewing beneath the surface. Her cubs would not see the bloodshed that their mother soo wanted to spill. A part of the stargazer wanted to rip Bila's maw off, but a stronger part of her, held the first back.
That is your sister, and there is love still in your heart for her, even if none lies within hers. It kept saying repeatedly in Fiory's full crania. Her heart panged with an agony similiar to what a human's arrow would be, and her legs felt both weak and strengthened at the same time.
"Bila...My sister. Do not curse my family with your hurtful words. These are your neices and nephew. Curse me to eternal damnation in the bowls of Wolfbane's fire, but leave my angels be. They have done nothing but love you as I still do, so do not curse them into Wolfbane's flames as you've done me." It was not a plea, it was not an appology. It was a request. A request from a sister who still held love for her Drappa, but more importantly for her own sister.
"I have helped you through times of hardship Bila. When Tsuki passed on, when Rage left, and now when Syra passed away. I have been there for you when you needed me most, helping you as you are now, a Drappa of a pack, and here is the thank you I recieve for my volunteering services to your name. Distrust, anger, hatred and loathing. This is what I get? After our years of togetherness, friendship, and companionship, I get your hatred? No more Bila, I say no more." Fiory's agile paws flew foreward and she landed just a foot or so away from Bila's hatred filled maw. Her ebony black coat bristled in anger, hurt and loathing filling those golden orbs as she stared defiantly at Bila.
"I met you when you were a cub, befriended you, trusted you, loved you as my sister, and here, when I need your help most of all, you shun me from your side. I see the hatred boiling beneath your hue and the anger you have toward me right now. I see that you have thrown me from your heart, and see me as an enemy, someome to spit upon and someone who is unworthy of even your glance. I may as well be a pile of stool that you have stepped in by mistake! Is that what you see me as? Is that what I am after all that we have been through!?" her voice was getting louder, angrier, and more hurt every moment. Her eyes watered with tears, both of sadness and hatred for her once loved sister.
"You may have thrown me from your heart, but you are still in mine. For all these hateful words come down to one thing. They are but words, and nothing more. Your threats are nothing to me anylonger, and I still hold you dearly as my sister, my dearest friend, and my cubs most trusted aunt. As a Drappa, I thought you would see that your greatest power in your pack would not be your strength nor the strength of the individuals within it, but heart that lies just below each sinuy (sp?) muscle..Gryffin, has a large heart, caring and stern, as well as Sudak and Lyft. My cubs have a heart of nothing but love for their mother and their elder brother and sister, and their aunts, Lyft and yourself. My late mate Tor rest his soul in peace, had love for everyone in this pack, including you Bila, with a special love just for me and his family. I have love for you as my dearest sister, and my dearest friend, but as a Drappa, there is no love for you. Being a leader has changed you for the worse Bila, and I am unafraid to say it to your face. Look at yourself in the ice and the snow, see who you have become. Surely, this is not the Bila I knew as a cub, and please do not tell me that she is gone for good...If I were to challenge you, dear sister, I would never be able to kill you. Injure yes, harm physically yes, but if it came to the death, I would take my own instead of yours. If you did not know that by now, then perhaps you are not the sister I thought you were." She growled, a tear running down her face, but it was not of sadness it was not of hatred, it was of worry and anger, detestful love and hurtfelt sorrow. There was no appology, and there never would be. Fiory did not feel an appology was needed from her, but she did feel that Bila, needed to wake up to what was reality.[/glow]
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Orion
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Post by Orion on Jan 28, 2005 17:01:28 GMT -5
[glow=blue,9,000]His nape was loosened again as his dear mother set him at her feet for the second and third time. His ears went back slightly, as he meandered his way away from his mother, slipping in the snow over to his older sister Gryffin who held his sister Shatila in her maw.
"Why's mama so mad?" He whimpered at Gryffin and Sudak's feet, looking up at them with pitiful eyes and curiousity. His paws slightly shook in the cold and his body trembled with the snow. His little black puppy coat shivered and his teeth began chattering again, his little muzzle looking around in the trees and past his angry aunt and mother, to the dark treeline.
"Where's papa?" He asked, his voice chattering and quaking, as his teeth snapped together repeatedly, his tail flicking around his legs trying to keep them warm.[/glow]
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Post by Bila on Jan 28, 2005 17:30:51 GMT -5
She snarled as once again Fiory gave a command, and her anger burned as Fiory spoke. Her sister was being stupid. Bila did not hate her. She had always thought her to kind and perfect, and she thought her to be a Drappa, but she did not hate her. Right now she wanted to tear into her face and drive her from the pack. And she would. “I have not cursed them,” she growled furiously, her patience stretched. “But List will never be their home.” She longed to add “and nor yours” She couldn’t live with a Varg who thought she was always right, when she wasn’t. Bila looked at her side, and all she saw was useless words. What was the femur arguing about? Half the words she said had nothing to do with it, and Bila had not changed; only her love had. She wouldn’t wait to have List taken away from her; it was her only home, the only thing she trusted. The Lera died, and so did the Vargs, and so she put her trust into the land that bore her, and she wouldn’t let anyone take it from her care. “I love them, but they give you strength, and they give you power. You lead them, but not the pack.”<br> Fury etched Bila, and she snarled fiercely. “You helped me! You helped me! You should be damned to Wolfbane! You did not help me to get through anything! I owe you nothing! When I sought you for help, you barely spoke of him, you barely did! I had to put him behind me, I had to!” Her voice became shaky with rage. Fiory was giving herself credit she did not deserve. She had not known that Rage had left until a while ago, not helped her about Tsuki, and she had only comforted her along with the pack. “You haven’t helped me, I’ve helped myself. How can you take credit for the things I have gone through, when you have not experienced them? I have been tested, and I have survived, while you let your pack take care of you! You make me so angry! I don’t owe you anything, I do not need to thank you. You have had a wonderful life, hidden away in your to happy self. This is where my hate begins. It begins because fools call themselves hero’s, they call themselves just. Are you just? No, you are not. How not? You blame me when I am doing what I feel is right. If you can’t look at my side, you can’t look at life. You can only look at yourself. If you knew me, you would know I am the same. If you knew me inside out, you would understand the thought of my position being taken away. I love this land, I love the ones who died on it. This land is who I am, and if I can’t take care of it and love it, than what am I? Maybe you never knew me, and now it seems as if you will never bow to me. You have the heart of a Kerl and so that is what you are. You are no longer apart of List. Your cubs will stay, for I have made a promise. But take one, for you are no longer in List.”<br> A sharp breeze blew her fur, and she took a shuddering breath. Fiory had angered her by challenging her, insulted her by telling her she was wrong, and now she was driven out. Bila could not handle someone who threatened her home and would not bow to her. Fiory was going to her well deserved fate.
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Post by Gryffin on Jan 28, 2005 17:50:42 GMT -5
Emerald optics fixated upon the form of Bila.Gryffin felt her legs trembling. Not of fright but of what was said. Her crimson tipped ears fell back against her skull as she looked to the snowy ground but its gaze made there way to the shivering Orion. Gryffin shook her muzzle in disbelief. The tri hued she varg looked up at her aunt. Never had she seen her like this, only once and that was when her and Sudak had their training session. But this was different in a way. Why was Bila being like this? Didn't she care for the pups? Gryffin looked down at Shatila still hanging limply in her jowls. Gryffin was speechless, she could not find a word to be spoken of.
Was this the end of List? Would it fall apart and crumble to pieces? A whine escaped Gryffin's shut maw and she looked over to Sudak wwho had just gotton snapped at for suggesting a hunting trip. Gryff's tail wavered by her legs as her optics zoomed over to Fiory. The tri hued varg blinked. Was this all because Bila was afraid her position would be taken? But the lives of three young cubs were at stake. Gryffin wanted to butt in to say somthinf but found no words to say. Gryffin began to head off to the dens when a small voice was heard. Gryff looked down at the little form of Orion. The hurt look on his face to much for Gryffin to bear. Gently Gryffin brought Shatila down onto the floor,much to her dislike. "I'm sorry Stila, it will only be a minute" Gryffin said licking the whelp on her muzzle. Gryffin then nuzzled Oroin, "Fiory and Bila just have a disagreement, It's okay. Every one argues at one point in time, but soon they will make up and be close friends again" Gryffin smiled heartedly reasuring the pup. "And Orion don't worry, Bristol will be home soon." Gryffin spoke, yet she herself did not know.
Gryff looked up into the skies and sighed, oh mother, please help us make it through. But what ever the cost watch over Denish, Orion and Shatila Gryffin went to pick up Shatila when Bila had said it. She had pulled the trigger. Never again did she want Fiory's cubs in List? Gryffin turned and growled. She just blew it. After all those months of depression and frustration cramped up inside Gryffin was about to blow. Her pupils contracted as she approached Bila. "How could you say such a thing? What has happened to you auntie? Has the great devils of Wolfbane possessed you? It would be hard to believe that it did not. Can't you see? They are all but young cubs. They need our protection need our loving and that means you too Bila. They need you too. Whether or not you do, that is your decision but I know I have made mine. Where ever these pups go, I will go with them and I will not bother you any longer, I'm goign to start heading off to the new den and perhaps later I will hunt for you Fiory, may I have to go to the end of the world to find a runt of a mouse, but I will do it." With that Gryffin swung around and padded back to Sudak, her hackles bristaling. She did not know what over came her. A sigh escaped her maw as she bent her head low. "Let's go Sudak" Gryffin spoke as she layeddown, her belly touchign the cold snow, "Hop on Orion, I'm afraid that's the only way you can get out of that snow, for now at least until Lyft arrives." Gryffin said waiting for Orion to get on. She then motioned to Shatila, "Come on Stila, lets go."
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Post by Fiory on Jan 28, 2005 17:52:42 GMT -5
[glow=purple,9,000]Tears flooded her face. Had she heard nothing? She did not say that she knew everything, nor did she say that she was a hero. But perhaps it had seemed that way. For the moment, Fiory was confused, she did not want to leave her home, and esspecially her family. Her cubs still needed her, and she would not leave them.
"Bila..." her voice was faltering, her head lowering gently in what would seem to be a bow. But this pained her. She was not one to bow to anyone, she saw them all as equel and not as servents to someone who was higher on the ranks. Ranks were nothing to Fiory, they were just things to impress others with.
"Bila...I can not leave, whether you wish me to or not. I do not deny that I have had a good life. I do not deny that. " Fiory was giving in. With the prospect of being removed from the only family she had known since her puppyhood, she was giving in to keep it. "Bila...please. I have no where else to go, and you are my only family here in this world. With Bristol's death, I have nothing but hatred and sorrow mixed beneath my being. It was not my intention to challenge you like I have, for if you knew me, I would never do such a thing to you. You are my sister, and you always will be." More tears fled from her golden orbs, and Fiory had not the strength to hold her head up anylonger. The tears that fell off of her ebony cheeks, dripped upon the snow, melting it slightly before freezing to the ground. Perhaps she was wrong yet again. Perhaps this was not how it was intended to be.
The anger, the frustrations, the sheer dread of raising a family on her own, had frightened the female, and her furiousity was taken out on her dearest friend, now trying to banish her from the pack for those same words. Her ears lay flat against her skull, but not in aggression anylonger, in a submissive way. Fiory had had enough. Her legs gave way beneath her, and she felt into the snow, kneeling before lying down in front of her sister.
"My frustrations have blinded me. I could not see that you were trying to help. I have done nothing in your life to help you and yet you do all you can to help me. I am unworthy of your gaze nor your friendship, and I appologize Bila, I appologize for my life, for everything good that has happened in my life and not in yours. I appologize for everything Bila...I even appologize for mentioning your name with my damned tounge. If you truly wish me to leave your pack, I will humbly leave when my cubs are old enough to live without my care. Afterwards, I will never burden your sight with my form again." more tears fell from her eyes, the thought of loosing her sister, after loosing her beloved mate, and loosing her family and friends frightened her more, and her frustrations lifted from her agile being. Sorrow swept through her, and she felt as though she was nothing in comparison to her sister. Her sister had fought through so many things, and now it was wrong for her to force her to fight through her sister as well...[/glow]
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Layl
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Post by Layl on Jan 28, 2005 18:01:06 GMT -5
((Woah...Fiory's gone?! *whimpers*))
*Lyft sat and watched the comotion burning between the Drappa and Delta, and ehr heart began to race as she felt the hatred, anger and worry spread to even her own being. What would happen? She knew that Bila was Drappa and could do what she liked - but how cold and heartless was she to throw a mother and three deffencless cubs out tehre into the world at winter? Lyft knew how packs worked, and Fiory was digging herself a deeper and deeper hole by not bowing down to their Alpha - however she had her own rights and if this is what she chose then so be it - what could Lyft do against such poer in a pack? Then it came to ehr - Lyft may have seemed worthless and nothing but a failure in life, however Shato has placed the position of Beta apon her own charge, and Lyft had the chance to speak up and set things right. If Bila asked Lyft to leave also, then she would - but what would happen then? Would she order everyone to leave who spoke a word out of place? Bila needed to control her temper and her powers...Shato had lefther in her place to look after the pack, not let their precious home and family be torn apart by silly bickering.
Lyft got to her long legs and slowly padded between Bila and Fiory, ignoring Fiory's golden hues and penatrating Bila's single taffy orb with her own icy glare. Tail was held rigdged, but not high enough to demand the respect of a Drappa, she never did. And still ehr legs trembled at the thought of what Bila could do with such power...if she died, then it would have been defending ehr own rights and pack.
Bila. You may be Drappa of this pack, but if you cared about your family so much then why throw your sister out along with her three deffenceless cubs who are of your own family? You can order Fiory to leave, but that means you have lsot someone dear to you - and you may order me to leave and i shall - but then that will be two pack members gone. How much more power do you need to prove your point? Can you not jsut let it go for once? Shato trusted in us all to stay together!
Lyft's voice began to tremble as she spoke with a whisper, hurt by the mention of Shato's name - for she was the first wolf to trust her...the first wolf to accept Lyft for who she was...and trust her with the position of Beta in her very heart - her pack..*
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Post by Bila on Jan 28, 2005 18:03:20 GMT -5
//Well, it seems I haven't done a good job, so Fi's gets the pack on one condition: she lets Ixy lead after her. It's hard being a Drappa, especially when your pack is against you. Good Bye, and I"m sorry Shato, I tried, but I couldn't handle it.//
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Layl
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Post by Layl on Jan 28, 2005 18:04:13 GMT -5
((Eeeps >.< Double post, sorry Fiory! Bila, we weren't against you! And Fiory gave in - don't give up so easily! This may be like real life wolves, but not that extreme! Lol >.< Why do you give up your position when Fiory gave in?))
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Post by Bila on Jan 28, 2005 18:11:23 GMT -5
//Because I can't kick you all out! What am I supposed to do? Fiory gave in, but nobody else did. How can I lead Vargs that disagree with me? It won't be like a family? It's hard, and i don't want to ruin List. we need to be a family, but how can we when no one will like Bila? I just don't know if I'm the best to be a Drappa, and so it might be better if Fi's is. I don't want to give up or be a sissy like I am being, but I just don't want to be against everyone.//
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Layl
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Post by Layl on Jan 28, 2005 18:14:11 GMT -5
((Bila, you don't have to kick us all out. Just listen to what Fiory and Lyft said, hurt us and we'll bow and then we'll jsut continue on. Or you can jsut ignore our words and keep it going but hold a slight grudge - afterall, Bila still ain't too loving with Lyft after their history lol. No one by Lyft now is challenging you, and i;m Beta, you cna put me down and Lyft will possibly snap back but she'll respect you. She always has!))
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Post by Bila on Jan 28, 2005 18:16:11 GMT -5
//Sorry I caused a commotion, but I'm done. I don't know if I can write anything good at this moment, but I'll think of something.//
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Post by Fiory on Jan 28, 2005 18:17:32 GMT -5
[glow=purple,9,000]((I still don't know what to say to that...-.-' Isn't it a relief? I've finally got nothing to say....lol....Bila, you were and still are a great Drappa....No one doubted you of that. And I don't know if I'll even meet your standards, I mean, I'm honored your giving List to me, but I still don't want you to leave because of it...I mean, even though I was really 'female-dog like' above, I still need you here hun...You've never been a sissy, not to me...I never thought you were...and we're not all against you. I think everyone ganged up on you this one time, just cause they thought it was a bit silly to make Fiory's cubs and Fiory take off in winter....I mean, if Shato had done that, you would have been against her too... And don't say you wouldn't be, *hugs* ))[/glow]
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Post by Gryffin on Jan 28, 2005 18:33:25 GMT -5
//NEUU Bila stay! Shato picked you as drappa anyways... and besides... what pack does not have arguments? I mean it would just be a lie if every pack were all happy and saying "Oh I love you " all the time and not having any disagreements... Your still a great drappa to me! and wanywaize this is just one rp! Gryffin wasnt against you either, she's actually very happy that her auntie is the drappa, just that she was all depressed and all that shato had left and she just blew it=P and she does notwant her auntie to leave too! So stay!//
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Post by Fiory on Jan 28, 2005 18:40:46 GMT -5
((Not like I want to sound rude in saying this, but I think she's made up her decision. And of course I'll accept her terms. Ixy leading after me. I don't even know if I'll be a good Drappa myself, so my 'rule' I suppose more then likely wouldn't be long. I hope she stays on longer in List, when (I guess) I'm Drappa....I mean, we'll all miss Bila being Drappa, but I guess she's already made up her mind to give it up. Bila, I hope you stick around though hun...We'll miss you if you don't.))
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