Post by mephis on Jul 31, 2006 17:48:50 GMT -5
DISCLAIMER: This is a REAL story. All of this is true. Names have been left out or changed to protect identities, but everything else is completely factual.
Critique is NOT welcome. This was not meant to be critiqued.
Let me tell you a story.
A story about love, pain, and more than all that, about truth.
Once upon a time, I joined a site. It was my first time roleplaying. I'd seen RPs before, but I'd never thought about joining one before. I was bored, and thought it would be a brief, casual thing. But the people there were nice, and I got swept away in the wonder of wolf RP. I made friends, who became my friends not just because of the roleplaying. I knew there were other things going on outside the IC, but I didn't think much of it.
I began to feel closer to these people than I had with anyone else. I never thought you could fall in love over the internet, but I was dead wrong. Soon, I found that my heart pounded in my chest whenever I talked to one boy in particular. We were best friends, and we had tons in common. I'll call him Jack just to keep things simple. But I didn't want to tell him because if I did, I knew it would change things, not only between us but in the RP. Months passed, and I became a veteran. People admired my skills in RP, and I made even more friends.
But one day, when I struck up our usual conversation over AIM, Jack was in a mood I'd never seen him in before. He was depressed, felt like someone had 'run him over'. Broken-hearted. I then learned that more things were going on in the site than just RP. Turns out he liked one of the other members as more than a friend, and that she had felt the same long ago but not anymore. I consoled him, despite the fact that my own heart was shattering inside, constricting into a big knot of pain and self-pity.
But he got over it eventually. Things slowly returned to normal. Both of them seemed to have gotten over the drama, and things were running smoothly for a while. But when Jack started acting odd again, I grew concerned. We had talked about, literally, everything you could talk about, so why wouldn't he talk about this?
And then, he told me that he loved me. Needless to say, I was shocked. No, I was beyond shocked. Stunned. Frozen. Paralyzed. Dumb-struck. Jack told me things that no male had ever told me before. It was like someone was pouring love over my heart and stirring warmth that I had never felt before. I felt like someone actually cared about me. I had plenty of male friends, but I had dug myself into this trench, put up barriers against anyone who I wasn't related to that said those three words that mean so much. I love you.
We were happy. He was a bit of a prude, but our conversations became happier, more broad. It was a happy time, for both of us. Jack told me not to tell anyone else, not even people we didn't know. I agreed with him that telling others we RPed with would throw things off balance, but I still got an icky feeling knowing we had to keep it secret.
But then I started noticing things. Jack lied. A LOT. At first it was little things- He'd say he was at dinner but his AIM never went to idle in the 40 minutes he supposedly was gone. He'd say he'd post somewhere but then he wouldn't. He'd claim he'd seen a movie when he hadn't. Little things. But then the small lies starting getting bigger. Jack and I started fighting. It was usually me that started it, I'll admit. But I needed truth in my life.
And then, I uncovered a BIG lie.
The girl he had liked before, my own best friend on the RP site, still liked him. More than that, she wanted to marry him! Head over heels in love with him. And Jack knew. But what really irked me was that he didn't explain to her that he didn't like her anymore and that he didn't want to marry her. At this age, we shouldn't be planning on marrying people! But even still, it angered me. I confronted Jack and told him it was over. Only when his little sister got on and begged me to take him back with stories of how much he was devoted to me did I reconsider. But at that moment, all love for Jack vanished.
Things got rough from there. We still had our little spats, lover's quarrels if you'd like. Jack was still over-protective of me. Whenever I mentioned my male friends, he'd get suspicious and demand that I tell him if I liked someone else. Sometimes I'd even get afraid to talk to him, worried that he might explode at me.
But the worst was yet to come.
In one of our fights, which leaked out onto the roleplay, another member of the RP contacted me and told me something that made me more mad at Jack then I had ever been before. Turns out that Jack had lied about more things that he said he hadn't. Jack had told me that he had loved three girls- Aurora, a girl he knew in real life, the girl in our RP, and me. But that turned out to be a lie. The member that had contacted me told me to go to a particular site and speak to a friend of his if I wanted to know more. So I did.
Even still, I don't know how many total girls he did this to. Last time I counted it topped five, including me. But Jack had a history. I talked to two of them more than others, and both of them are here and have given me permission to tell my story, to tell about them and what Jack has done. For Jack lied to me when he said that he had never loved anyone else more than me. He lied to them. To all of us. Jack goes from girl to girl, changing every few months. He charms them with sweet words and a gentlemen's attitude. He tells you how much he loves you, how much you mean to him. If you say you're ugly he tells you that you're beautiful. He won't go farther than you want him to go. Essentially, he's the perfect guy. But this perfect guy is a deciever. One of the girls I talked to told me about how he used her to get back with his ex, breaking her heart and then, later, breaking the heart of his ex by dumping her once more.
I was horrified. As I spent more time talking with these girls, I began to realize that Jack was little more than a heart breaker. He was a paranoid religious fanatic, and ironically a habitual liar.
So we planned. All the girls were angry. Enraged. And although we couldn't satisfy our own demands for his blood, we knew we had to do something.
So dear reader, you are reading this. I am just the latest in a series of girlfriends that Jack has crushed under his deceptive boot. Don't let Jack do to you what he did to us. Adults tell you that meeting boys over the internet will only get you stalked or caught up in the chaos that you hear about on the nightly news. But we didn't meet Jack on myspace. We didn't go to the middle east to meet him. We didn't post nude pictures of ourselves. We don't even know if Jack is an an adult. We met Jack on a roleplay, and that can be just as dangerous. You may not end up being molested like some of those warnings about myspace say to you, but you'll have your heart broken. So take advice from some of us who have gone through it ourselves- Don't hook up with guys over the internet, because it's a whole lot easier to lie using a keyboard than it is in person.
Critique is NOT welcome. This was not meant to be critiqued.
Let me tell you a story.
A story about love, pain, and more than all that, about truth.
Once upon a time, I joined a site. It was my first time roleplaying. I'd seen RPs before, but I'd never thought about joining one before. I was bored, and thought it would be a brief, casual thing. But the people there were nice, and I got swept away in the wonder of wolf RP. I made friends, who became my friends not just because of the roleplaying. I knew there were other things going on outside the IC, but I didn't think much of it.
I began to feel closer to these people than I had with anyone else. I never thought you could fall in love over the internet, but I was dead wrong. Soon, I found that my heart pounded in my chest whenever I talked to one boy in particular. We were best friends, and we had tons in common. I'll call him Jack just to keep things simple. But I didn't want to tell him because if I did, I knew it would change things, not only between us but in the RP. Months passed, and I became a veteran. People admired my skills in RP, and I made even more friends.
But one day, when I struck up our usual conversation over AIM, Jack was in a mood I'd never seen him in before. He was depressed, felt like someone had 'run him over'. Broken-hearted. I then learned that more things were going on in the site than just RP. Turns out he liked one of the other members as more than a friend, and that she had felt the same long ago but not anymore. I consoled him, despite the fact that my own heart was shattering inside, constricting into a big knot of pain and self-pity.
But he got over it eventually. Things slowly returned to normal. Both of them seemed to have gotten over the drama, and things were running smoothly for a while. But when Jack started acting odd again, I grew concerned. We had talked about, literally, everything you could talk about, so why wouldn't he talk about this?
And then, he told me that he loved me. Needless to say, I was shocked. No, I was beyond shocked. Stunned. Frozen. Paralyzed. Dumb-struck. Jack told me things that no male had ever told me before. It was like someone was pouring love over my heart and stirring warmth that I had never felt before. I felt like someone actually cared about me. I had plenty of male friends, but I had dug myself into this trench, put up barriers against anyone who I wasn't related to that said those three words that mean so much. I love you.
We were happy. He was a bit of a prude, but our conversations became happier, more broad. It was a happy time, for both of us. Jack told me not to tell anyone else, not even people we didn't know. I agreed with him that telling others we RPed with would throw things off balance, but I still got an icky feeling knowing we had to keep it secret.
But then I started noticing things. Jack lied. A LOT. At first it was little things- He'd say he was at dinner but his AIM never went to idle in the 40 minutes he supposedly was gone. He'd say he'd post somewhere but then he wouldn't. He'd claim he'd seen a movie when he hadn't. Little things. But then the small lies starting getting bigger. Jack and I started fighting. It was usually me that started it, I'll admit. But I needed truth in my life.
And then, I uncovered a BIG lie.
The girl he had liked before, my own best friend on the RP site, still liked him. More than that, she wanted to marry him! Head over heels in love with him. And Jack knew. But what really irked me was that he didn't explain to her that he didn't like her anymore and that he didn't want to marry her. At this age, we shouldn't be planning on marrying people! But even still, it angered me. I confronted Jack and told him it was over. Only when his little sister got on and begged me to take him back with stories of how much he was devoted to me did I reconsider. But at that moment, all love for Jack vanished.
Things got rough from there. We still had our little spats, lover's quarrels if you'd like. Jack was still over-protective of me. Whenever I mentioned my male friends, he'd get suspicious and demand that I tell him if I liked someone else. Sometimes I'd even get afraid to talk to him, worried that he might explode at me.
But the worst was yet to come.
In one of our fights, which leaked out onto the roleplay, another member of the RP contacted me and told me something that made me more mad at Jack then I had ever been before. Turns out that Jack had lied about more things that he said he hadn't. Jack had told me that he had loved three girls- Aurora, a girl he knew in real life, the girl in our RP, and me. But that turned out to be a lie. The member that had contacted me told me to go to a particular site and speak to a friend of his if I wanted to know more. So I did.
Even still, I don't know how many total girls he did this to. Last time I counted it topped five, including me. But Jack had a history. I talked to two of them more than others, and both of them are here and have given me permission to tell my story, to tell about them and what Jack has done. For Jack lied to me when he said that he had never loved anyone else more than me. He lied to them. To all of us. Jack goes from girl to girl, changing every few months. He charms them with sweet words and a gentlemen's attitude. He tells you how much he loves you, how much you mean to him. If you say you're ugly he tells you that you're beautiful. He won't go farther than you want him to go. Essentially, he's the perfect guy. But this perfect guy is a deciever. One of the girls I talked to told me about how he used her to get back with his ex, breaking her heart and then, later, breaking the heart of his ex by dumping her once more.
I was horrified. As I spent more time talking with these girls, I began to realize that Jack was little more than a heart breaker. He was a paranoid religious fanatic, and ironically a habitual liar.
So we planned. All the girls were angry. Enraged. And although we couldn't satisfy our own demands for his blood, we knew we had to do something.
So dear reader, you are reading this. I am just the latest in a series of girlfriends that Jack has crushed under his deceptive boot. Don't let Jack do to you what he did to us. Adults tell you that meeting boys over the internet will only get you stalked or caught up in the chaos that you hear about on the nightly news. But we didn't meet Jack on myspace. We didn't go to the middle east to meet him. We didn't post nude pictures of ourselves. We don't even know if Jack is an an adult. We met Jack on a roleplay, and that can be just as dangerous. You may not end up being molested like some of those warnings about myspace say to you, but you'll have your heart broken. So take advice from some of us who have gone through it ourselves- Don't hook up with guys over the internet, because it's a whole lot easier to lie using a keyboard than it is in person.
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